Wednesday, August 31, 2005

Idolatry and Reverence

Monday night (2 nights ago), I asked Alonzo, a friend of mine who is part of my poetry community/family, "What would you say was this 'understanding' that you came to in reading the things you read, or the Bible, or in learning from your Grandmother, or whatever?" His answer: "Reverence. That no matter what happnes, no matter how filthy things get or look, there's something [God] that's worthy."

Tuesday night, at Canvas Group (my church's small group, which I was facilitating this time) something came up in my soul when a particular issue came up. We were talking about the "image of God." The question that came up at first was, "By 'image of God', do you mean like God Himself, or like Man and our relation with God, Man's being 'made in the image of God'"? My heart truly and most deeply seeks the first one, whereas the second one is secondary and marginal (for God is the center of the world). But my answer was, "the second one" (meaning, lets talk about the second one, because the first one will get awkard to try and talk about), while the first lurked in the back of my mind and in a void in my heart.

Later, the issue came up again, more directly referred to this time as a "philisophical issue" (not that it is necessarily and only belonging to that which we know of as "philosophy"). Christ was "the visible image of the invisible God." Does that mean that God looks like a man, or that God took form into having the likeness of Man? Here again, when the question arose Tuesday night, I stated that I was hoping to avoid that question, as I was afraid it was too "philosophical, and boring, and would zap the energy in the room." And yet, particularly after the Enlightenment, this is precisely what I most deeply believe to be so very important!

We're talking about idolatry here, the "graven image"! Something in that moment Tuestday night really strongly arose in me. And it was particularly awkward, because I had to then shut down that urge; because Dave (my roommate) then proceeded to joyfully hug me - "Hey, great, you finally realized it! Everyone's not you. You're growing!" In Wednesday night's solitude (that's tonight), I would see how Dave was oh so ironically correct. I do not say "ironically" because he doesn't understand idolatry (I think, mostly, he does), but simply because I now see that God is edifying me in a way that Dave did not mean when he said that I was growing. Dave was talking about a whole different issue. My concern with vanity, marketing, of catering our souls to the mold and urgings of Satan's world. I am not interested in catering my concerns, desires, words and actions to the mold of the world. I am, in fact, intending to break that oh-so-hardened mold (and yet, only as an example, the women who fit into that mold change face so easily, with their cosmetics and with how quickly they change from whom they desire to recieve love).

Wednesday night (that's tonight), I realized that God was paving the way for my reverence of Him, for my seeing Him as the "One who is 'worth'" (thank you, God and Alonzo). And God's been leading me there all along. I knew my Gostic urges of previous years served some purpose, but since writing my paper on Gnosticism, I did not know what that purpose was (for me in my soul, all of the years previous; what was God doing?) Gnosticism was Satan's twising my desire to revere God, to "love Him with all my heart, all my soul, and all my strength." And yet Gnosticism (or basic Gnostic urges to reach higher) was God's sneaky way of leading me closer to Him, of ridding me of so much of the filthy idolatry present in the modern world. If you are Christain, you may be asking how on earth what I just said hold's true. Understand that I was already Christian, and had the Holy Spirit in me. God uses many things as instruments for His children. The key is not necessarily the instruement, but whether or not you are His child in the first place. Of course, Gnosticism is itself dirty, and a very impure channel for reverence, but that's the very reason something funky arose in my Tuesday night. Old habits die hard. My urge for knowledge has so often superseded my urge for reverence (and yet, let us not be mistaken: a certain kind and way of knowledge is necessary, from the Holy Spirit, for proper reverence - we cannot rever both God and our own personal idolatrous image of Him).

Now the channel is purified. Writing the Gnosticism paper was part of the purification ritual. Now I understand the connection between why idolatry is so importantly emphasized in the Bible (why it seemed so important to me, and why it seemed to be put on my heart as an important issue to be addressed by God) and love for God. We are commanded to have no idols, but to love God with our all. That's The Sacred Romance; "divine intimacy."

If a man is blind to idolatry, he is unwilling to fully love God, which can then only mean that he does not fully "know" God's love for him.

Also, I now "see," or understand how and why idolatry was confusing to me before. It's a different kind of sin, now, in our modern world, present in a very different (and yet the same really!) form from in ancient Cannaan. It is not just something we do. In ancient Cannaan it was; the Canaanites would sleep with "the temple prostitutes" and mutilate themselves, in expression of actual (or "literal") worship of a lesser god, similar to what Paul would later refer to as a "mere angel." Now however, idolatry is not present in our actions, at least not so obvously, but is oh-so-definitely present in the very way that we gaze upon the world, the very basic assumptions that we hold as to "what is an image." When I say image here, I am referring to both ourselves as an "image", and the "image" that we "see" - that is the world itself.

Positivism, and even previously, Enlightenment knowledge, and modern scientific logic in general, has caused us to truly believe that God, the almighty God Himself, in His very "essence" at the core of His very own "Being" (if you can call it that), has the form of a man! Not to mention that we then betray the meaning of the word "form", as it implies formation - God is the Uncreated! I hear the objections..."But the scriptures say, 'In the image of God, Man was made'." How did we loose so completely a truth that the ancient Hebrews took for granted that we have to die to a way of seeing and be reborn into another more pure and original?

God as some dude is, daah hello, a "graven image", the very essence and standard of all possible graven images. Much more death defying than merely a golden calf, which did not pretend to be an image of God himself! Does no one any longer study anything remotely ancient Hebrew, as to obviously find that this topic was of central importance to them? I am here referring to "our" very "conception" of who is God (these words I put in if our conception of Him affects who He truly is within Himself!)!

And how did I not see that this anceint Hebrew concern for "keeping straight" (to use our contemporary parlance) who God is was simply an expression, clear and even intentionally so. of reverence and love for God? Oh how ironic it really did turn out to be that I took this concern to be too "philisophical", since it was only because I myself have often thought about it, or been exposed to it, through a philosophy called Gnosticism, rather than through God's Word. Of course, I've already answered my own question. Satan can no longer keep me from the greatest of loves. I am free.

Sunday, August 21, 2005

Compassion on Babylon

While I was in Architecture school, I found that the tradition of Architecture, particularly after the dawn of Modernity around 1600 or so, mirrors the “image of God” in which Man is made. Understand, as I say this, that buildings are made by men, and therefore reflect the men (and the Man) that make them. When I say that Architecture is like the “image of God” in which man is made, I could mean many different things. Here, however, I am referring primarily to that age-old dilemma, the battle between the mind and the heart, intellect and emotion, which is also present in the fact that we now dichotomize the mind and body. This “dilemma”, this “issue” if you will, reflects the very organization and make-up of the human soul. I view all of these aspects of humanity as just that, parts of one whole. To me, mind, emotion and body are all inseparable parts of one whole, one whole all of whose parts move together, as one being, one “human being” (moved primarily by the Will). This, however, is not a common assumption, especially after the above-referenced dawn of Modernity. And you can see this chasm in the tradition of Architecture (and all the other arts as well).

Now, for all Architects and non-Architects alike out there, imagine what it would be like to actually design a building. The following may sound overly-simplistic, or even down-right obvious (after I explain this, you may find yourself saying “thank you, master of the obvious”), but it is the essence of what happens when a building is made, or comes into being. See, first someone, an artist hopefully (rather than merely a business man) imagines a building. Next, you see, it is actually made, built.

That’s that dichotomy between mind and body, which philosophers have so endlessly discussed through the ages. Emotion isn’t really present until there is a body. You can, in detached fashion, imagine anything, with no emotional or bodily ties to what is in your mind. Once the thing is present in bodily reality, it is subject to physical limits and emotional responses.

If, with this explanation, you are wondering how on earth I, the guy who just explained the process of design and building as “first this”, “then that”, think of the “this” and the “that” as one entity; just think of the simple fact that, when you were “first” imagining the building, it was the very same building that “then” got built.

This idea of the two parts being a whole springs from Holiness, and my quest towards it. Not, of course, my Holiness, but God’s. And also, of course, the Holiness present in the “image of God”. When you realize it was God, who is One (“Hear, O Isreal, the Lord your God; the Lord is One.) who made the image, you reailize it is both the “this” and the ”that” that are interwoven into the “image of God” in which Man is made, together.

Now, let me explain something. This unity, this harmony between mind, body and emotion, which springs from the originally-intended state of wholeness in which we were made, was common in ancient times. You can see it in the Architecture of ancient peoples. I believe that the defining characteristic of Modernity is the separation between these things (the Capitoline Hill has an equestrian statue in the center; St. Peter's square, designed less than 100 years later, after the threshold of modernity, has rather a funeral obilisk in the center), between mind, body and heart. It is not until modernity that you see artists, architects in particular for the purpose here of coherence, arguing about these things. In modernity, one guy says “The intellect is what’s important!” Then the next guy says “No, it’s the body, its craft!” And you can see which guy makes which argument in their actual “body” of Architectural work.

Now, of course, you can see the presence, or importance of the body in the work of the guy who says “It’s the body, craft, that’s important!” As explained, you can’t make a building without imagining it first. What distinguishes this guy from the other, is that you can see that he places his primary emphasis, the primary importance, on craft and the body. Same goes for the other guy who places the primary importance on the intellect. You can see the importance of the body in his work – otherwise there would be no building – but you can clearly see that it is the intellect and the imagination that is of primary importance to this architect.

Now, let me provide examples.

The Athenian Parthenon is the classic example of an ancient building that came from a time before men so separated body and mind. And you can see this harmony, this unity in the building. And it is very beautiful. See:

Now, following is an example of a famous modern architect who most people recognize as someone who places the primary emphasis on the body and craft. The work of Louis I. Kahn, who’s son recently made a documentary called “My Architect”, about his father and his works. See:

The following is an example of a famous modern architect who obviously places the primary importance on the intellect, the mind. The first link is to the famous Barcelona Pavillion, in Barcelona, Spain. The second is a link to the Lake Shore Drive Apartments in Chicago, Illinois. Both are by the famous Mies Van der Roh.

Both of the examples above, I believe show a harmony and a profound awareness of the wholeness both present and needed for the human soul. In the first link, the works of Lou Kahn, you can see the apparent bodily emphasis in how the building is made, it’s weight and very bodily presence. But you can also see in his work a clear and coherent intellectual order and rigor, without which the building would fall apart, both literally and figuratively.

In the second two links, you can see the obvious emphasis on the intellect and the mind. Both the Barcelona Pavillion and the Lake-Shore Drive Apartments are designed on a super-imposed grid. The grid is less obvious in the photographs of the Barcelona Pavillion, but when experienced in person one sees that it is clearly organized around a grid of six cross-shaped posts. Between the posts are various highly abstracted Euclidian planes in space serving as walls, roof and floor. The super-imposed grid is obvious at the Lake Shore Drive Apartments. In both buildings however, in response to and reflection of that grid imposed over from the heights of the intellect and abstract planes in space, are dark colors and very earthly materials and tones. This brings the buildings back into harmony and balance.

[Note: for my reader’s more full understanding, the architect associated with the first link, Lou Kahn, never designed on a grid. Explaining how he did organize his buildings would be a bit complicated; essentially, from the beginning of the “design process”, as the building is coming into fruition, it is the architects intention to let Mother Earth speak for herself, with the assumption that she is Wise, thanks again to that original “image of God” thing – Lou Kahn was Jewish]

If only we all were aware of such highly-needed harmony and balance, and how ever-present is the dis-harmony and imbalance. Following is a link to a very famous building that presents to us an image of profound disharmony, a major kink in the well-oiled machine, if you will. It is the Pompidou Centre in Paris, France, to which many tourists flock each summer, smiling and laughing gracefully. Ironically, the building is intended by the architect to be comedic, but I’ll admit that I have a hard time laughing (or have in the past, at least). I might laugh if others did so with me, but it is rather ignorance that seems to prevail. It is designed through the skeleton of a super-imposed grid, but then it’s actualizaion as a crafted, bodily thing does not seek to reflect against that intellectual grid; it does not seek a restoration of balance from the super-imposed over-emphasis on the intellectual part of the human soul.

Ask this building about harmony between mind, body and emotion, and it’s reply is “What harmony!? I don’t need that. Look at all these laughing people. Why are you so concerned about this anyway! You are weird, and crazy. No one else cares so much about my “harmony”; why should you! Get with the programme, mister!”

My answer to the building is this: “re-read the first paragraph of this blog mister!” My concern is with the Holiness of God himself – mister! The very image in which He made his beloved bride. Further, and in some sense more importantly, the Pompidou Centre is the New Tower of Babylon! [reader gasp…”What? But the Pompidou Centre no tower at all?”]

The Tower of Babylon is a picture of the human soul distorted in a particular way (by the will). It is not only some physical, historical tower that we can locate at a certain point in history and in the scriptures and never have to worry about again. Babylon is the fundamental condition of our culture, and the fundamental problem for modern man to resolve.

It is not only man in which you can see the “image of God,” but in all of creation. If you look closely, you can “see God in everything.” It is as if the heavens and the earth emanate with this image of God, relating to it analogically; and Man, with the gift of voice, is the crowning immanence of this beautiful image. “Then God said…” (Genesis 1: 3). Further, if one does an in-depth study of Genesis, you can see that it is ordered in accordance with that “dichotomy” between mind and body discussed above, as pertaining to the tradition of Architecture. First day: light and dark. Second day, “waters above” separated from “waters below”. Third day: clear distinction of an actual “heavens” and “earth”, later to be related analogically to the “mind” and “body” (how many of us think of our mind as “up there”, while we think of our body as “down here”?). Of course included in that same third day is plants and vegetation springing back up toward the heavens. Man “heads” up toward the heavens, and his feet are “planted” firmly on the ground.

It is no mere coincidence that the vessel of the mind, the “brain”, is housed in the head (imagine if your head were attached to some part at the bottom of your body!). And, it is no coincidence that the head is shaped like the heavens (ever heard of the skull referenced as “your dome”?), whereas the rest of the body is organized in relation to its other parts and in relation to the earth by the right angle, while the square is the traditional symbol for Mother Earth. We stand at a right angle to the earth, and our arms and legs relate to our torso along linear axes

To understand the Tower of Babel, you cannot simply observe the object of the tower; you must get at its very urge, understand. “Let us build for ourselves a great city with a tower that reaches to the heavens – a monument to our greatness. It will bring us together and keep us from scattering all over the world.” (Genesis 11: 4) Why would a tower to the heavens be a monument to our greatness? There is obviously enough of a pre-established connection, from the very foundations of how God created us and the world, between us and the heavens, for a tower built by man, to the heavens to be “a monument to our greatness.” Why, in the first place, did man think to even want to build to the heavens? It is in this spirit that I say that Babylon is the fundamental condition of modernity. Modernity was the building of the Tower (soon I will explain further, via example at least). “Post-modernity” is the separation of languages!

“But the Lord came down to see the city and the tower the people were building. ‘Look!’ he said. ‘If they can accomplish this when they have just begun to take advantage of their common language and political unity, just think of what they will do later, Nothing will be impossible for them! Come, let’s go down and give them different languages. Then they won’t be able to understand each other. In that way, the Lord scattered them all over the earth; and that ended the building of the city. That is why the city was called Babel, because it was there that the Lord confused the people by giving them many languages, thus scattering them across the earth.” (Genesis 11: 5-8).

What were the primary topics of discussion in modernity? “Universal truth”, “absolute truth”, many moderns even dared to dream of a literal “universal language.” And what is the primary topic of discussion in post-modernity? “Interpretation”, “context”; the meaning of the text is determined by the interpretation of the reader, each of whom has his own set of background experiences and his own personal context in which he reads the text. In other words, the “text” says something, in one language, but then each reader comes to it with his own separate language. The text and the reader have been “scattered across the surface of the earth”, and we are all speaking different languages. One of the favorite books of the post-modern New Age folks, however, is The Alchemist, which talks a lot about the “silent language”, which we can all understand together.

Now, my intended audience for this piece of writing is my fellow Christian friends. So, please allow me to assume a certain commonality there. I am seeking after the Holiness of God. I am seeking healing from our separation. I recently had an experience of such healing, in a, for me, completely new and unexpected way. See, as I was even realizeing, and learning the things discussed above, it brought me much healing; but there was much left to do. I mentioned earlier that I had a hard time laughing with the Centre Pompidou. That was my lesson recently! Compassion!

I recently got into a huge argument with a very good friend (a fellow-Christian) about politics and the character of our current president, George Bush. This of course brought me a lot of pain, but it also ended up leading to a lot of healing. Before I more fully explain that, however, let me give a little more background information.

Above, I shared some of what I learned while in Architecture school, and thereafter as well. I learned about many other things in parallel with my learning of Architecture. One of the topics I learned a bit about (not as much as Architecture, of course), was politics. Through it all, I came to really question, and even oppose how most of us have habitually come to think of politics. From my vantage point, politics in America, for most people, is a question between Democrat and Republican. Republicans are “conservative”, and typically thought of as more related to the cause of Christianity. Democrats are “liberal”, and less concerned with the cause of Christianity. On a larger scale, outside of our own country, we are all taught that communism is evil, and that, of course, since Christianity cannot even be legally practiced in a communist state, it is obviously opposed to the cause of Christianity.

Well, that view was drastically altered and reformed in time, for me. As I began to behold this beautiful image of God planted in Man, I realized that politics, on both the domestic and global scale, too reflects this “image of God”! And that is even primarily what moves politics, what gives form to different political opinions and views. One political camp (Republican, or “communist”) sees one aspect of God (His central, over-arching position; this is Alexander Hamilton's desire for a stronger central government), and how He made man in His image (that Man has an intellect). The other camp sees another aspect (the humility of Christ, that a man's eyes are only 5'6" from the ground, and see in only one diredction; this is Jefferson's desire for a more localised government). One camp says “my aspect is right!” The other camps says “no, my aspect is right!” [brief side note - as mentioned briefly above with the difference between Lou Kahn and Mies Van der Roh - it is not a question of who is right and who is worng, it is a quest to find God in His proper place, and Man in his proper place] In order to see politics in relation to the image of God, you have to step back and see politics in view of its entire history, from the dawn of time, as best the way God would see it as possible.

From here you see that the very same parts of man (such as body, mind and heart) that make up man and his tradition of Architecture, also of course makes up his tradition of politics. “Point for point, the Founding Fathers’ argument for liberty was the exact counterpoint of the Puritan’s argument for dictatorship – but in reverse, moving from the opposite starting point to the opposite conclusion. Man, the Founding Fathers said in essence (with a large assist from Locke and others), is the rational being; no authority, human or otherwise, can demand blind obedience to such a being – not in the realm of thought or, therefore, in the realm of action, either. By his very nature, they said, man must be left free to exercise his reason and then to act accordingly, i.e. by the guidance of his best rational judgment. And, because man is basically good, they held, there is no need to leash him; there is nothing to fear in setting free a rational animal. This, in substance, was the American argument for inalienable rights. It was the argument that reason demands freedom.” (from:

Most Christians, as they read the previous quote, if they find anything anti-Christian about it, will point first to its saying that man is basically good, it ignores sin. As I read that, however, my first thought is that the first Babylon is no different from this one. The scriptures say “Let us build for ourselves a great city with a tower that reaches to the heavens – a monument to our greatness.” This places man at the center of the “universe”, which in itself is the fundamental condition of sin anyway. Notice that I italicized where the previous quote on America’s Founding Fathers emphasized reason – the intellect. It was that part of the image of God that moved modern politics into being - the “faculty” of the “intellect”.

It is my position that “the Puritan’s argument for dictatorship”, as much as anything else, came out of an ancient attitude, vantage point, and relation to the body that has been lost in Modernity. It is the body that stands underneath the over-arching view of the heavens, in a position not of authority but of obedience, leaving it to reach for more power (“Let us build for ourselves a great city with a tower that reaches to the heavens.”). It is the intellect that has an over-arching view of many bodies, lending to man a false sense of authority. “But the Lord came down to see the city and the tower the people were building.” The heavens are, ultimately, the place of God. For man’s arts and politics to center themsleves in the heavenly realms of the mind is for Man to steal God’s place from him. So basically, Babylon is the basic political condition of man who is sinful. “Let us build for ourselves…”. Satan is the Prince of this world. This is why, if I have to choose between Mies Van der Roh (the grid-imposer), and Lou Kahn, (who lets the Earth speak for herself) I like Lou Kahn better. And I feel it is no coincidence that Kahn was Jewish, while Mies was basically a classicist (in other words, a “pagan”).

It was in this spirit that I came to seriously wonder about the “Christianity” of America. Why do we think of America as a “Christian” country? I came to see this as deception straight from the Devil. Along the same lines I came to seriously question the “Christianity” of George Bush (for many other reasons also), who supposedly as “professed Jesus Christ as his Lord and savior.” Of course, particularly with my realization that America is not Christian, I experienced a lot of healing, but also a lot of pain. It felt so good to seemingly see the truth. Felt like an exodus. But at the same time it made the pain of the disharmony all the more acute. It stings.

For me, it was with this background that my friends last weekend were discussion the “Christianity” of George Bush. I could tell, of course, by the nature of the conversation, that they were thinking of America as a “Christian nation.” I could tell that, if they were architects, they would be designing some disharmonious machine organized on some super-imposed grid (I could tell that by how they were interpreting the scriptures). I was discusted. All of that pain, along with the hoped-for joy arose in me all at once. I blurted out, from that place of pain as much as anything else, “Bush is a pagan!” Of course that didn’t go over so well. I ended up arguing vehemently with one of those friends until 3 am the next morning. Monday morning I was a bit tired at work.

As I pray and think back on my conversation with my friend that night, during which I got so frustrated that I lost my voice, the thing that sticks out most is how forcefully we were both trying to shove each others’ opinions down each others’ throat. “Let us build for ourselves…”. Thinking back on it, I could feel Satan devouring and choking, deceiving me into placing myself at the center of the world. But this does not mean that I didn’t have a point to make; same with my friend.

He and I met again last night (the next Friday night, or Saturday morning), and talked for five hours. Ironically, the conversation ended at the same exact time as the previous Sunday night (or Monday morning, rather), 2:51 am. This time we had had a week of reflection and prayer. This time we prayed before the conversation. This time we were both quicker to listen than to speak. This time we were “conscious” of placing God as our center, and as the center of the conversation. This time, as I think back on our conversation, the primary thing that jumps out in my memory is the presence of God.

Five minutes before my friend showed up at my house Friday night, I was reading over my journal entries from that week pertaining to our conversation the previous Sunday ngiht/Monday morning; along with the quote above about the primary “reasons” for our country being one of “freedom” and “democracy,” during which I was reminded again that the roots of our government are in Greece rather than Isreal. As we began to talk a bit, I explained to him that I was not testing him. I had prayed that I not ask questions out of my own agenda, but that I truly seek to understand him. So, I asked a few questions, and, randomly, for no reason whatsoever, he starts rambling emotionally for three hours about his unrequited love. Disharmonious overemphasis on reason was the very thing that I had sensed in him the previous week that was so out of wack (both in his politics and in his interpretation of scriptures)! Rather than ask why he brought that up, and interrupt him, I simply, by the urging of the Holy Spirit, listened. And it all came together. I was listening, behind my friend’s words, to the voice of the image of God peeking through, leading itself toward Holiness and healing. Rather than being fixed on what he had to say about politics, I became curious as to what he would have to say about it in a state of emotional health, which I was imagining at some point in the near future.

I listened as he explained that he felt he has once had a chance with his unrequited love, but that he had completely blown it, taking a mile when she gave nothing and by taking nothing when she gave an inch. It was here that it suddenly all clicked, and the healing (for me, and somehow somewhere deep in there for him too) took place. It was an issue of faith, and strength. God had drawn the two of us goofy Nimrods together so that He could heal us together!!! Let me share with you a quote from an email to another friend sometime between Sunday and Friday.

“I've sort of seen all this coming ever since I first met my friend like almost 3 years ago. When I first met him he was always quick to forcefully voice his opinions on stuff (such as politics), and I never said anything. It is all finally coming up. When I first heard him say stuff, before I ever knew him, I could like almost audibly hear in my mind all the crap behind it, his whole framework/system of thought i knew from the moment he opened his mouth. So, why do I say this to you? I'm not sure WHY it's coming up now, in terms of what God is doing. Like, I sense that healing wants to happen for BOTH of us. I mean, why would I not have brought it up then, when we first met? Not really sure where that line of thinking is heading, but...”

My not saying anything when we first met, when I had the opportunity, is no different from my friend’s sitting in a chair half-way across the room from his love rather than in the chair right next to her that she had saved for him! Not that I’m gay (let’s get that “straight”). But I love my friend. That’s the healing! I love him enough to listen to him rather than force my opinions down his throat. He and I are one. And I had fooled myself into thinking that, because of his wacky rationality, modernity and his seeming lack of understanding of the needed harmony between heart and mind (seems he actually understands it quite well if he’s moved to ramble for three hours for no reason about unrequited love), if there is any Christian with whom I have nothing in common, it was him. Right! As if my heart and mind are perfectly conjoined like a good husband and wife! Also if I’m right about this whole Babylon thing, as it pertains to architecture and politics, mind and heart, the image of God, then it will be proven by God Himself in His time! I don’t need to force it down anyone’s throat (David didn’t take matters into his own hands by killing Saul)! And my self-consciousness about forcing it down throats is the very thing that leads me to the weakness and lack of faith that doesn’t let me take the inch given when given, why I didn’t say anything when I first met him.

Maybe rather than carelessly and forcefully blurting out that “Bush is a pagan!”, right smack the middle of a bite of chicken, Bush being a man who has openly professed Jesus Christ as his Lord and savior, I could, for one, at least, take a more tactful approach. Who knows, maybe I can even take a more truthful approach, now that my soul feels cleansed; and I don’t feel the need to force and project my painful experiences onto others so that they will “get it.” Now, when my friend “rebukes” me for slandering a fellow brother in Christ (Bush), I can actually listen, and repent in love. Now, rather than viewing him as a Nimrod Modern (of course I’m certainly not in any way shape or form, in anyone’s eyes, a Nimrod Modern!), I can view him as a bride of Christ, no different from myself, with needs for intimacy and love, healing and wholeness!

By the way, I never did bring up the whole Babylon or “image of God” thing on Friday night. I don’t feel I was given that foot. I did mention that America was founded on reason, which was Greek, rather than on Christ, but that was the inch I was given, and that was the inch I took. And that was it. Nimrod had a heart too. And it felt good. And I felt relaxed afterwards.

Friday, August 12, 2005

Who is the Prince of their own World [system]?

agian from Our Father Abraham, by Marvin R. Wilson (p. 330)

"Finely tuned, systematic categories of Christian thought have too often been imposed deductively upon the Old Testament, thus obscuring its original meaning. In Jewish thinking, however, 'not system but commentary is the legitimate form through which truth is approached.' Because Christians have been overly anxious to systematize Jewish thought, they have left themselves open to misinterpreting the text. In addition, the search for truth can be unsettling, especially if the interpreter is willing to go wherever the text leads him. Seeking to bring forth the meaning of Scripture inductively - which is precisely the task of the commentator - sometimes results in a diversified and fragmented understanding of truth. But it is more honest and wiser to handle the text in this manner than to construct an artificial system that int he end fails to let truth speak clearly in its own terms."

"To be certain of your own existence is the ultimate arrogance." (Daniel Libeskind). The goal of any world system of knowledge or belief is certainty. That we take certainty of our own existence for granted is proof that we all think systematically. God's knowledge of us, and His knowledge of our "very existence," is our humility. Here, when it comes to a question of our actions, we must be "willing to go wherever" God leads us, which may result in actions that appear as "diversified and fragmented." If I am certain of anything, it is that I am dead. We can only be certain of things of the past (things that, in other words, are dead). But our God is the God the living (which means it may not be up to us to know what will happen in any coming moment). So to be the operator of my system is to be certain that I am dead, whereas for God to be the mover of my soul is to be willing to let go of myself as the giver of my life ("if you lose your life, you will gain it"). This very will (to let go) is to find life. Its the glory of the cross, this treasure found that had been hidden.

"My friend, blood shaking my heart
The awful daring of a moment's surrender
Which an age of prudence can never retract
By this, and this only, we have existed
Which is not to be found in our obituaries"
- T.S. Eliot, The Wasteland


"Let's save the analysis for the afterlife." - my good friend Adam Noble

Jacob's wrestling

"Our English word religion most likely derives from the Latin reli-gare, 'to bind.' Accordingly, religion is commonly thought to be a state of life to which one is bound by certain vows, duties, rites or obligations. By definition the Christian religion thus came to mean - particularly as the Church strayed more and more from its Jewish roots - a particular system of doctrine. In brief, religion was primarily seen as a body of beliefs governing worship and behavior.

To be sure, theological truths are important in biblical teaching. Nevertheless, the Hebrews did not view a life of true piety and godliness as an impersonal relationship to a structure of thought, but as a personal relationship with the living God. Its true locus was not found in an array of dogmas or cultic regulations, but in the response of one's whole person in love and total obedience to the Creator.

In today's Church a similar danger exists. It is sometimes labeled 'bibiolatry.' Christians must take heed that they do not esteem to the written truth of Scripture that they become blind to the actual worship of the living Word behind that Scripture. The biblical heroes of the faith did not live primarily to extol a creed; they sought to walk daily in close fellowship with their omnipresent Lord."

from Our Father Abraham, by Marvin R. Wilson, pp. 319, 320.

May those with ears, hear. With our eyes open only to the no-thing of a written word, we are blind to the actual presence of God in the moving air which is spoken verse. God spoke the world into existence. He did not write it down.

There's a story in which colonial British man sent grapes (among some other things) to a neighbor via a primitive native American Indian. Included in the package was a letter saying how many grapes (and how much of the other stuff too) was included in the package. During the journey between neighbors, the Indian ate some of the grapes. When he arrived, he handed the package over the the other colonial Brit, smiling as the Brit grabbed the grapes and began reading the letter. Suddenly, after finishing the letter, the Brit began mercilessly beating the Indian, to the Indian's dismay. The Indian did not understand why he had been beaten. He eventually ascertained that the Brit had found out that he had eaten some grapes. But how did he know? Suddenly, the Indian remembered that the Brit began beating him as soon as he finished reading the letter. The Indian was astonished at the mystical power of the white paper with strange black figures on it, grabbed it from the Brit, and bowed down to it in worship.

This is not just a story about a stupid primitive Indian who didn't know how to read and write. The ancient Jews had scripture memorized in their very souls (in their minds) due to continual repition into the ears. Their access to the scriptures was not via the literally written word, but by its actual spoken sounding.

What is lost in a society in which, not only is everyone literate, but in which everyone is only literate? Is - such a society - Real? My illiterate cousin is much smarter than most people I know.


Wednesday, August 10, 2005

Reflections on E4 Part 1 – Dream Awakener/Calling, Jason Hesiak (2)

One day we’re all going to march into the oval office and demand that Bush reverse the military budget with the poverty budget. Then we’re going to go to the reflecting pool in front of the Lincoln Memorial, and turn it red. We will plant a sign in the middle of the pool that reads “This is the color of the blood of all people.” Then we’ll go to Los Angeles. There we will paint the red “Virgin Records” sign white, and place a marble statue of the Virgin Mary on top of the building. Then we will go to the white Capital Records building, paint the white “Capital Records” sign brown (along with the building), and place a big huge wooden cross at the top of the building. Then we will paint the cross white with red blood-stains in the appropriate places. Then we will go to Africa. There we will give all the orphaned children, the “colored” folks that Americans don’t care about (the color brown, by coincidence only), a great feast, instructing them to eat all they want. Then we will put all the crumbs that fell on the hard African dirt into a big basket, and return, basket in hand, to the oval office. We will place the basket before the president on his desk, with a sign on the side of the basket that reads “Even the dogs eat the crumbs that fall from the master’s table.”

The next morning we will write a letter to all the teachers of modern biological sciences in the grade schools. These are the people who teach our children. When we arrive in the class room, letter in hand, we will interrupt a class dissection of a fetal pig, while the teacher will be explaining the importance and value in cutting up dead animals that men may attain knowledge and mastery over the universe. The letter will give news of the previous days events, and it will also explain the symbolic value of all the actions we did. The teacher will read the letter, with mouth a-gape, especially astonished at the end when explaining the symbols, and will not understand. For this teacher, all symbols have lost value and meaning, since symbols are mysterious and things only have logical, rational and measurable meaning. Symbols do not readily or usefully lend themselves to our scientific mastery over the universe.

In her astonishment, the teacher will faint. We will then rush to the principle’s office, with both the letter and a fetal pig (just to explain to the principle what happened, why the teacher fainted and the circumstances behind the tragedy). The principle, reading the letter, will also have his mouth a-gape. But he will enjoy it immensely, and his eyes will come alive with light and joy. He will then suddenly gaze upon the dead and battered pig with compassion and love. He will pray over the pig, and the pig will come back to life, and be healed of all its wounds. It will run back to the classroom, and while laughing at the poor fainted teacher, climb on top of her so that the children will hear better what he’s about to say. He will then shout, with great joy and satisfaction, the announcement of the Lazerene miracle that just took place. The students, studious as they are, will stop the dissections that they are still in the middle of, take the same pity on all of their own pigs, pray over them, and they will all come to life, singing for joy.

At this point the principle will rush into the room, and seeing all the pigs alive and singing, will himself break out into song to God. All the pigs will then jump out of their dissection pans and onto the floor, and make their way down the halls, singing. The first pig will climb down from atop the teacher, following them, also in song. Then all the students will follow the pigs down the halls, also singing along. Then the teacher will wake up, puzzled at the empty room.

The pigs will lead the way all the way back to the oval office, followed by the students, then the principle, then us who originally handed the letter of the previous days events to the teacher. For the whole rest of the day, on into the night, the pigs, students and principle will march to the oval office, singing praises to God. They will arrive the next morning explaining to the president what has happened. The principle, smiling with overwhelming joy, will then hand the letter to the president (who was himself part of the events the first time), explaining how the whole pig-raising got started. The president, in the presence of the pigs, the students, and the principle, will then read letter. On his desk will still be the basket full of crumbs that reads “Even the dogs eat the crumbs from the masters table.”

This time, astonished, the president will actually decide to reverse the budget for the military and for ending poverty. In joy, the president will lead the principle, pigs, student, and us to the reflecting pool in front of the Lincoln Memorial, all the while singing praises to God. In the beautiful light of the descending sun, the pigs will jump into the water, swim over to the middle, retrieve the sign that read “This is the color of all people,” and hand it to the president. The president will smile, and instruct everyone to make 34,000 bottles of water out of the contents of the reflecting pool. Turns out, exactly that much, no less and no more, perfectly fits into the bottles and empties the pool.

On the third day, us, the president, the principle, and the pigs, will all go back to Africa, taking with them both the basket of crumbs and the bottles of water. We will all give to the 34,000 children that would have died that day of hunger and thirst both a bottle of water and a great feast (again) with everything they ever desired (all contained in the basket). Written in white letters on the sides of the water bottles is the phrase “You are the salt of the earth.” Now written on the side of the basket, in red letters, is the phrase “You will never hunger again.”

Reflections on E4 Part 1 – Dream Awakener/Calling, Jason Hesiak

In reflecting on beginning on writing this paper on my reflections on the first year’s first part of E4, I thought, at first, mainly of two things, which eventually became one. Firstly, and more specifically to E4 the program, I thought about all of our readings, which were all amazing; they both awoke deep laden dreams at the core of my soul, and affirmed much of what I learned in the previous eight years of my life. Secondly, and more related to my associations to E4 in the context of my whole life so far, I thought of what God has been doing in my soul, “character development” as Dallas Willard called it in one of our readings, which he says is essential and primary to the coming of the kingdom. In the past month or so, God has begun to cleanse me in the purifying fire in a new way. Upon further reflection on my journal entries for this first section of E4, concerning both the readings and what God is doing in me, I saw that they follow the same theme really – and not just the general theme of the coming of the kingdom (although of course that), but something a bit more specific to both my own life and to this particular section of E4.

The main theme of the writings that hit me is the thread of the concern with symbol and ritual throughout the Our Father Abraham readings, which reappears in the writings of N.T. Wright in a different way. Both show an awareness of an ancient world-view that does not necessarily separate body and mind, or body and soul. For ancient people’s ritual and myth were natural ways of life, which “reflect” their different world-view. Wilson, in many different ways, has undertaken a head on study of many of these rituals and symbols of the ancient Hebrews (and modern Hebrews as well). You can also see traces of such thinking in that he concentrates his studies of scripture under the context of the actual life of the ancient peoples. He does not study the scriptures solely as words on paper. He doesn’t treat words as mere nominal representations that remain forever locked in the world of the literal, as if trapped on an island with no one around. He treats words as the breath of life, moving air, the breath of God. In that way then, when you set your sights on actual air, you come upon the gaze of an actual world and a way of life of a people. And you find in his writings many very interesting and lively studies on the life of the ancient Hebrews, which calls back now to the core of our heart, asking us again to “Hear, O Isreal, the Lord your God; the Lord is One,” to take joy in the Lord. Wright, on the other hand, seems to generally show a strong awareness of the difference between ancient and modern, in many different ways. In general, however, he seems to understand, like Marvin Wilson, the connection between body and soul; and his writings reflect such awareness.

My life up to the start of E4 you could say was the quest for an understanding of that old world view, which you could also say really turned out to be a quest for Holiness, which is the source of wholeness (I was seeking healing from the inherent brokenness of modernity, the separation of body and soul, and of Man and God). Since the start of E4, my life and its quest toward God’s Holiness has turned in toward my own character development. Do not misunderstand me here, however, in referring to character development as "inward." That is the whole point of the Holiness which I have been seeking. Character is our appearance in the world playing a particular role, as a particular character. One of the Holy Ones of God or one of the Unholy Ones. When I refer to "character development" as "inward," first of all I am referring specifically to our reading of Dallas Willarard. Secondly, I am speaking under the less than common assumption that inward and outer are not spearate. God, in His timing, has revealed lust and anger in my soul, and began the healing work needed to reconcile me to past pains, going as far back as early childhood. He revealed these things to me through my outer actions, but this was to me exactly that - a revelation, a bringing into the light what was previously hidden within. All things that appear in the world are manifestations and revelations of some "inward" spirit; although properly speaking, the distinction between "inward" and "outward" breaks down. In Holiness there is one "whole" thing, and the "inward" and "outward" parts are just that, parts. Although even then, they are not necessarily separate parts in themselves, but only called out and named as two distinguished entities because we (the folks who do the naming) can see one of them (the outward one), while the other one is hidden from our view (the inward one).

For me, our reading of Mathew, Chapter 6 pretty much ties it all together – the readings of Marvin Wilson and N.T. Wright, and the development of my own soul. To me, that particular chapter centers on establishing the proper relationship between inside and out, body and soul, inner character and outward action. Don’t be a hypocrite, praying on street corners and doing acts of charity in public for all to see (Don’t be a Jacob, a deceiver), but pray and do your acts of kindness before your Father in heaven, who is your only real Father (be the Is-real you are called to be). “Our Father in heaven, hallowed be thy name.” Don’t put your heart into false treasures, but into the only real one. Have a pure eye, so that the Spirit may shine through you, and through to you (don’t fix your eyes on the unholy half-truth of this world only, viewed by modern science as separate from the world of spirit). Don’t strive like the wind to be beautiful among men, but let God be beautiful through you (flowers don’t work to make their clothing). And don’t worry about the necessities of this world. The God who’s breath is the reason for it’s existence has it taken care of. The Lamb has overcome.

In coming to the face of God, Grace and perfection shine onto your face. In acting in the world, with your faith placed in God (and not the world), that light shines through (to the world), giving all things their true value (not just making us healthy emotionally so we don’t have to brag to our friends, but also bringing value to things, and making us properly valuable to be able to make a living) and their true place (the proper orientation between the inner world of spirit and the outer world of visible manifestations). All in all, this is another way of saying that, when God is the center of the world (and our center also of course), things then play their proper roles in the world, have their proper character. Numbers aren’t merely quantitative, but deeply symbolic of God’s presence and working. Emotions aren’t just thoughts that determine our actions, but are deeply indicative of spiritual forces calling forth from within.

Christ himself, God in the flesh, is the ultimate example of this connection between Spiritual and material, inner and outer, both in his simple appearance in the world, symbolically the “bread of life," and in his actions that demonstrate God’s loving “character.”

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